Tuesday, January 26, 2010

chit chatting with mommy.. =)

mom pop the question today... is it we're seriously in love with each other
=) let me krrp it la for myself bout that conversation.. but i always pray to God
the best for me.. coz saya yakin... dgn siapa pn saya dipertemukan.. itu adalah yg terbaik utk saya =)

mom getting so excited recently talking bout wedding decos like me! =)
hehe ni mesti gare2 terinfluence.. lian xsure lian da story or not bout this..
but..=) seriously my mom dah start talking bout my wedding.. hahha which lian also
dont know when would it be.. =) tgkla jodoh saya cemana nnt eh.. surely..
i'll invite all my friends...

sekarang ni.. me n my mom memg tgh rajin buying the magazines for wedding deco..
steal some of the ideas maybe? =)then this morning my mom dok sibuk berangan2.. for my wedding.. wut she like to have.. =)i'm impressed yet happy seing mom keep telling me her ideas... =)

ma.. dah lama teringin nak invite anak2 yatim on my bigday nnt,, ma nak jamu mkn.. and ma nak bli doorgifts for all the children..she starts talking bout this from the canopy thingy.. i baught a new Ratu Sehari the other day.. owh u'll beva know how much i love doing weddings so much! =)so ma pn ckp.. nak canopy with scallop. =)
tp xmo scallop biase.. ma nak ade nice curtain..

some sort like this





u can see kan the nice curtain there.. prt of the scallop? but my mom dun like pink! hehe she prefers all white..

ma pesan.. kalau nk serve org mkn jgn ala kadar semata murah je.. my parents are very particular bout food.. lg2 nk jamu org mkn..=) so ayah was thinking to sponsor me with dayang catering =P hehehe memg sedap! last rasa ms during my clients wedding.. even mkn ns kosong pn sedap.. hehehe even ma nak nnt ade zapin or anything yg akn entertain gues =) perhaps i want the bamboo chairs for my wedding nnt.. nmpk garden style.. =)plus! nak round table coz i dun likeee meja panjang!hehe fresh flower is a must! =) all of them... =D

haihh bykla ma dok bg ideas td.. happy =) cant wait the day to come! =D

ma being so worried bout me... she wants me to find the right one.. and the best man in my life.. ma ckp.. biala dia tu.. sayang kan saya more than saya syg kan dia.. dia jaga saya.. jaga maruah saya.. lindung saya.. protect saya.. hargai saya and buat saya happy slalu.. sbb happiness tu adlh bnd plg hardly to get nowadays...
ma being so worried.. mybe coz dia da notice.. i'm 23 this year.. which ma pn kawen at 25.. its gonna be 2 years from now =) so ermm tataula by that time i already have any planning or not bout marriage .. engaged maybe.. but tahla mcm mls nk tung pn ade. kawen je trus! =) hehe

okla guys nit already. i need to sleep.. tmrw nak anta adk g school..

tata...nite~




"the hardest thing in life is the things that u kept it in silence" - liyana

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

wut a dream...=)

owh so exhausted rite now.. but online jugak yg buat dada terasa lapang!!
sebab i can browse anything i want!do wut eva i wanna do.. yet to have more friends!
owh previously talking bout people who didnt realize i'm around ek?ntahlah... takkan its me yg nak force org kan? they do have to realize la.. well Alhamdulillah..
2010 starts so well.. dgn nikmat rezekinya.. Alhamdulillah..=) owh no to late...
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE....

owh make it short jela eh...
pnat la. nk blk mandi n tdo..
i had a great dream. bukan sbb sape yg ada dlm mimpi tu
but coz the feelings... the feels of care, love and warming.,
haih i couldnt explain here...


so long being soooo far from that feelings. wut can i say...

k la guys.. hope my days are getting better!! see ya!

Sunday, January 3, 2010




saya tersentuh dengar lagu ni.
at least someone terfikir nak wat lirik dia..
coz someone ingt when we let go..
we dun want them.. tp padahal diri kat cni
penuh dengan harapan... and perasaan tu xpnah berubah
but they think we dont need them.. which on the otherhand they no longer need us =')

"hakikatnya hati kecilku masih menyinta"

owhohoho derita? of course.... so touched.

kalau hati saya hurt.. saya akan ngs...
saya try jugak xngs.. tp it wont let go
mcm terstuck kat throat ni..
and i can do nothing....:')
people.. judging me in other way
when they didnt really know wut happened
apa yg saya try wat for this happiness..
dia xpnah tau.. how saya bertahan utk semua ni..
and saya rasa saya bangga sbb saya kuat utk bertahan
dengan semua ni... bila org lain tny " how lian? cukupla"
u wont understand.. why i'm still here...
susah nak dilupakan.. tp at least saya try
xnak keraskan hati saya mcm dlu..
he teach me lots till today...
but the other side are judging me without knowing anything
saya dituduh, 'diajar', ntahlah...
at last saya mengharap someone akan faham
ape yg saya rasa.. apekan daya..
bukan saya utk memaksa sesiapa
menyebelahi saya ats dasar saya priority bg dia
even saya tak tau saya ada kat mana dalam kamus hidup dia
saya nak cr page pn jmp kat dictionary life die
saya xtau.. saya cuma sediakan tiap page dictionary
hidup saya utk dia....:')
tp.. dia xkan faham... saya relakan...
terdetik kat hati.. sapa saya pada dia...
bila yg baik dan sempurna pada yg lain tp bukan saya?
owh itu priority.. saya sedarkan diri saya..
"jgn mcm tu liyana" hati terpujuk, tp terluka
mcm mana saya nak baik? :')
biarlah.. azam thn ni "REDHA" ...
i'll kept on my own.. biarla saya je yg tau
apa dalam hati....




saya cemburu dengan kebahagiaan org lain :')
tp saya happy utk diorg..
kalau inilah dugaan tuhan.. saya bersykur...









i will smile to wuteva it is...
this is the year =') and i have to..='}




"the hardest thing in life is the things that u kept it in silence" - liyana

Saturday, January 2, 2010

:')



ku...Di Sini duduk
terdiam membisu
baru..ku sadar atas kenyataan ini..
kau tak ingin diriku..
kau buang aku..

oh..cinta..
ku tak berbalas
hasratku terhempas..
apalah artinya semua slama ini..
kau beri harapan
sepertinya indah
namun kenyataan tak seindah mimpi
kau hancurkan aku
kau lukai diri...
aku patah hati..

tak ku sangka
semua ini..
kau lakukan
kepadaku...