Friday, November 12, 2010

Ayah.. :')

hey dear blog
soooo lonngggg xupdate blog
been busy with the exams..
i called my mom today.. just now. and i cried
homesick maybe.. i miss my dad so much.. i bet i can cry for long bile saya rindu ayah ;') coz im daddy's girl. :')

the thing is... today something touched..meaningful happened..
ermm hr ni tibe2 terasa nak mkn burger..
g dgn ekin to cafe.. burger kat lua together with makcik jual keropok lekor..
lian tgu at the burger stall.. sambil2 tgu tu.. i saw makcik tu mcm ma.
then ada pakcik (suami dia) dtg.. its just like ayah :'| -rindu-
tibe lian nmpk, byk keropok lekor yg xhbs.. nugget yg xhbs...
tgh hujan maybe.. xramai rase nk beli food yg light2..
tgh musim exam lg.. mesti sume lapar.. and prefer mkn heavy food..
then.. nampak pakcik tu kemas2 mskkan keropok yg xhbs dlm bakul...
nugget2... hujan2 angkat bakul... ade anak die skola menengah.. pmpn.. tlg..
:') well it reminds me... ms time skolah dlu.. and on my way back to my room.
i cried.. ekin tny saya knp.. i just said it reminds me ekin.. and saya mula story kat dia.. ;'|

ada one day yg saya xkan lupekan.. masa hidup belajar susah..
ayah akan hantar keropok lekor kat skolah tiap mlm sblm saya hbs prep..
ada satu mlm.. class saya hbs lmbt.. slalu mesti tlg ayh angkat bakul.. bwk msk koperasi.
tp mlm tu hbs lmbt.. hujan..saya lari2 nak g koperasi.. tp xdpt lalu jalan shortcut nak g koop tu
slalu akan ikut situ sbb dkt.. apa pn dr hujung jalan tu boleh nmpk ayah .. and on that day..
menjenguk ayh dah sampai belum..hujan2 cmtu.. nk cepat2 lari g tlg ayah.
suddenly dr jauh tu..nmpk ayah angkat bakul keropok tu selipar ayh dah haus
ayah sakit kaki..i know.. tp ayah perfer x spend duit utk die.. tp die prefer spend utk anak2.. ;')
then suddenly nmpk ayah dengan jaket hujan.. topi buruk.. angkat bakul tu..
tibe2.. ms ayah nak msk ke blok koop tu.. selipar ayh licin.. ayh jatuh tergelincir ;'(
saya letak buku tepi tempat yg teduh.. saya lari kat ayah...mengalir air mata..:'| tgk ayh kutip2 keropok lekor tu..
bertaburan atas lantai.. atas rumput..ayh yg xsempat bgn kutip keropok2 tu..
saya tlg ayh kutip bsh2 dgn hujan .. cuma satu yg saya dengar masa tu dr ayah ...... ;'|

"kak...kak.. kutip kak.. ya Allah rezeki kak.. kak tlg ayh kutip kak.. rezki.. kutip rezki kite kak":')

and saya tlg ayh kutip cpt2... tp keropok dah bsh.. ayah kata xdpt nk jual.. sbb dah jatuh.. kotor ..
xbaik bg org mkn cmni.. xikhlas... :') thats ayah...:')

saya akan ingt masa ayah terpaksa jual kat lua koperasi.. tiap hr sy akan curi2 kua kelas awal..sbb nak tlg ayh..:')
ayah akn bukak bonet kereta.. jual kat blkg kereta.. :') kdg2 ayah akn bwk meja..kdg2 org xdtg beli..
sbb gelap xnmpk.. pas2 tu.. ayh beli lampu kalimantang buat pasang kat blkg kereta.. tp xmampu nk beli generator :')
ayh hidupkan lampu dgn bateri kereta... satu hr tu.. kereta ayah rosak ;'| hujan lebat sgt.
ayah suruh sy blk bilik.. belajar.. "study kak" bak kata ayah..;') tp saya xsampai hati..
saya berlari g rumah cikgu saya.. suami dia ingt lg saya lari2 dlm hujan..
ayah jerit2 panggil suh sy jgn pegi tp blk saya cuma xsampai hati ;')

ayah didik saya.. hidup ni xpnah mudah kak.. bukan utk kejar kekayaan.. tp utk mencari rezki...;') cal ma td.. ma ngs dgr saya ngs..
kata ma " terharu anak ma kenang sume tu" saya xkan lupe ma..;')how ayh.. ma .. kerja keras utk besarkan saya..

saya rindu ayah..:'( kakak hope.. satu hr nnt.. akan ada org yg akan jg kakak mcm ayah jg kakak.. sayang kakak lebih dr ayah sayang kakak..


Friday, June 18, 2010

Saturday, May 8, 2010

ma happy hari ibu ma...=)

Hundreds of dewdrops to greet the dawn,

Hundreds of bees in the purple clover,

Hundreds of butterflies on the lawn,

But only one mother the wide world over.

i love you mom... kakak so thankful to have ma with kakak... sabar with perangai kakak... bg kakak smgt.. overcome kakak yg slalu cepat risau.. cium pp kakak slalu... and on my side always.. ma.. kakak hope.. one day nnt.. kakak ley jd isteri yg baik utk Amir mcm ma jd isteri yang baik utk ayah.. and kakak hope kakak ley jd Ibu yang baik pada anak2 kakak n Amir one day nnt.. mcm Ma jd ibu yang baik pd kitorg. =) ma kakak mtk maaf atas sume salah dan silap kakak pd ma.. halalkanlah segalanya.. dr kakak kecik baby dapat susu ma.. sampai kakak besar... tq ma.. for everything... =')

kakak sayang ma..

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

her name is SERI =)

nama dia.. seri salehati... =) dlu masa kecik2.. i gues not really kecik pn.. hehehe
primary school... she my very2 best friend.. till we end up to be apart away from each other.
dah xbrapa ingt sgt hehe our memories.. 12years dah.. =) but i do remember her face,, baby hair...
she is beautiful...=) we all same2 prefect dlu.. pki bj same2 biru..=) seri suke pki skaf rmbut
ade ribbon.. which i learn it from her... i love seing her pki bj kemeja prefect.. coz kemas sgt..
usually we all slalu 'bertugas' sama2 kat kantin.. and we even fight with each other...
i dunnow.. but dlm byk2 kawan.. i miss seri so much.. she's the one i can talk to... the one yg without telling her anythg
she will understand.. and die sgt penyabar org nya.. used to come to her house.. which we are nearby je..
she's so soft spoken and totally ladies..=)

tp the sad thing ms last day... before we've been apart.. i gaduh dgn die.. which havent got really a right chance to say goodbye..
that's the last day,,,

then i heard no news from her or updates... but i knw i missed her.. so much..
i wish i could share the moment.. when i'm so happy when i got 5as and manage to go to the boarding school..
i wish i can turn the time back.. not to get quarel with her..

from my moment at the boarding school.. owh preasure sgt2.. i dun have a good friends.. ade la friends but not a good friend..
like her.. owh seri sgt sbr dgn perangai saya.. mybe thats y.. i love her so much..=) SHE KNWS ME BETTER..
i keep searching.. tny kwn2... coz i dun have any add or contact no.. tmbh2 pulak time tu blum handphone era..
so day by day i google her name - zero results.. so frustrating..

kdg2 if tgh duduk2 dgn my mom.. my mom sikat2 rmbut at our home garden.. i always ask ma..

"ma.. ma ingt seri lg x? mana seri ye ma.. lama kakak xnmpk die"

ma -" xtry cari kat mana2?"

"dah ma, dah try cr kat brg2, n buku2 lama kalau2 ada add dia.... xtau nak cari seri kat mana"

and gues wut.. til now..i kept ask ma.. "ma,... mane seri eh ma"

thenn one day.. i think it was around last month.. i've decided.. google all seri available..= zero result

then br terpk.. owh facebook!! search "seri" and i tgk one by one.. "seri"

then... there is one pic which i could say " macam seri"

xperla.. i pn add je..then seri ade text me.. in fb.. tp her face xsame sgt..

then.. last week.. she post 1 pic.. and i TRULLYYY TRULLY KNOWWWW~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

SHE IS MY SERI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SERI SALEHATI!!!!!!!!!!!!!

owh, saya menangis waktu tu.. i was at home in jb... trus jerit pgl my mom coz i was so excited!!!tp that time x approach seri lg
to confirm.. tp me myself trully CONFIRM!! hehe yakin x?=P yes, she is my SERI...

thenn the answer is yes.. 12years.. i've looking for her.. kdg2 jln2 in kl with my bf.. i hope i can terserempak with seri
coz i know.. i owe her an apolagy...

dear.. seri..
u are the very best friend i ever had..
i miss u so much..
trully thankful to god for bringing us back again
thank u for being the greatest friend...
trully.. i miss u my friend..
and finally..
this tears would be my happiness =')

lots of my love... to my friend.. "HER NAME IS SERI..." =')

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

oh manusia!~

hye blog.. really not in the mood sebenarnya in writing lately..
dengan perangai manusia yg mcm2.. owh i'm so down dgn kwn2 sendiri..=(
we thought we have good one around us.. but the truth is not..
being pretending all the while to please others.. being so not me to adapt to them
make me so un'me'.. when i was thinking it back.. chat chatting with others yg feel the same way
the answers = totally down.. sgt down.. coz yes as usual.. been aspecting not for a return.
but at least a bunch of happiness.. for ur own :'(

i'm here.. when u hurt me..:'(

Monday, February 22, 2010


my room is under renovation.. its off white.. wanna get it done by end of this yr.. got plenty of time i guess.. hope can finish it..been browsing through some collections and inspirations.. looks nice too.. i have to make it design yg 'bertahan lama' coz ma kata the budget is for now only haha.. so nk tgu my bigday entah bile.. so kne la cr yg simple.. so later on nk upgrade ley add on or deco sket kan? hehe here are some in the list!a

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

liyana demam

dear blog,

today my 2nd day having a fever or should i say third day?=(
at first during evidence test on Monday night hr tu da rs semacam
with my tonsils.. i get so weak when it comes to my tonsils..
me and my family having the same problems..except my mom..
the genetic is from ayah... our lung can even be closed by the bengakak tonsils
i had one which was really2 bad last semester which really make me so worried enough!
boleh meringkuk atas katil thn saket k telan air liur pn.. it's really pain.. =(
bile da thn saket tu , here comes the flue... running nose which will make my lung full of kahak ( sorry for being disgusting) .. uhuhuhu sangat kalah when i'm dealing
with bengkak tonsils..=(( i had really bad fever... went to doc yesterday.. and got MC for 1 day.. today went to class all my friends are worried..

"lian are u ok?" .."lian pls go back to ur room sgt teruk ok"

huhu i wish i can.. but i dun wanna missed class (kononnya, actly xnk missed teh attendance)

seriously rs nak fainted... in trust class this morning kepala dah dok melepek jer kat dinding... nad even ask 'y did u come, g blk la rest lian"

huhu smlm really menduga kesabaran..
at first my HD PROB- then da ok da i btulkan sndri
then now my LAPPY plak prob.. cursor xjalan..
i think its coz of the virus..
huhuhu nk mtk en amir saya tlg format kan...
huhhhhhh =( serabut bile blk bilik..

kla guys.. i need a rest.. nnt2 kite smbung lg..

p/s: not in the mood to shoot wedding this weekends.. cmne? =( too bad

"the hardest thing in life is the things that u kept it in silence" - liyana

Thursday, February 4, 2010

its a dream wedding.. i want it!!

weee.. actly haa da tau nak cite ape ehehehehe
the other day.. i'm browsing through other bridezilla blogs!
i love wedding bukan la bermaksud sy cepat nk kwen! its becoz i'm doing wedding planner dear... daniel zain is part of my inspiration, and my favourite!! seriously! hehehe recently his client
would be ihsan & syaheedah... ihsan is a son of Dato' Seri Anwar Ibrahim..
the thing is.. 1st time tgk pic wedding they all i was amazed! and saying "this would be my dream!!" i did pm Syaheedah in the FB.. asking who is the wedding planer?
and she said " it was my mom, are u planning to get married? hehe if anything just contact me" omg having ur mom as ur planner best ok!! really me and my friends keep saying she is one lucky girl i bet u! congrats syaheedah =)ok pk2 yes i love her wedding !! wanna have mine camtu jugak!! sbb it was realllllllllyyyy my taste!!

alert!! to zara&fahd : my coming coordinator for my wedding!! =P i wanna it like this!!

hahaha tp xdela including rumah yg besar tu!! but i want the arangement and deco cmtu!
so gorgeous!! i love her reception dress (i think she's also inspired by Nor Juma's dress during her mlm berinai)- which i love the lace! hahaha i bet its really expensive ok!! + i love the lantern all the walkway and the canopy setting with the bird cage! and gues wut the fresh flowers thingy at each chair also in my mind too before i found this wedding!!!!! =) not really cost u lots of money if u pndai plan..

enjoy the pics! daniel! u're in my list!

the view of pelamin nikah.. so nice kan? so kalau photog amik pic pn lawa =) background best=p
credited: hehe i'm a photog! hahaha so my wedding will be so cerewet!

see? i told u so!! =P

love daniel shooting the details! =)

owh so in love with the lantern!!

gorgeous!! my mom dah plan cmni da! hahaah and +! she love the green ok!!!

this was totallly lame dah in my mind! its like a dream come true tgk ni!!

love the details! nice job daniel!

i love the lace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the canopy gorgeous kan?? hehe cume table deco maybe i prefer more flowers!!

wut an idea!! lanternnnnnnnnnnnn!! love it!!
(tang mane plak la kan nk turun tgga cmni dgn amir??? hhahaha)

i saw this cake in Martha Stewart.. nice! i love the orchid
hehehe cake da free -( my sista can make one for me!! =P)

they put the daisies all the way of the entrance ok!!

owh! *fainted* suke sgt lace ni! penuh!!! classic!! grand! =p

kene kumpul duit ni! but i like to look gorgeous and grand but bajet! sure i'll make it!!!!
seriously daniel in my list!!!!!!hahahahahaah

penat being final year

helloo blog!~
long time no see.. wee..
saya sgt pnat.. seriousslyyyy i'm damn tired!!
sory for the harsh words! pardon me for that..
hahaha kisah lawaknya smlm... i supposed to have PP test ( not really well prepared) - gara2 keje filing yg menimbon!!! hehehe ok2 lawaknya tu..
ok everyone dah siap mau amik test.. the paper already been distributed..
and suddenly.."put ur hands for those yg xde paper lg" and omg it was bout half of the hall kot!! hahahaahha tp me at the time.. alaaaa mdm sure xcancel nye.. mesti diorg strugle g xerox gak the paper!! hehe knwing my PP's lecturer yg both sgt strict ok!
they trained us for Profesional Practice!! haaaa gues wut test smlm posponed!!
td g class mdm was saying.."we've been thinking to give u a take home test" me? weee
owh hari ni we settled out everythg yg still waiting..
Alhamdulillah manage to submit the asgment.. tgl satu je lg for tomorow.. and heavenly is that i got skill class tomorow!! o'owww..

test coming next week!! 3 test!! hohohohoho +1 =4 kot??

kla guys.. tired enough to write.. xde cite best pn hr ni..
later if got sum wil jot 'em here...dpt bed.. mandi + mkn +tdo..=heavennya!!

Monday, February 1, 2010

i woke up this morning and wink!!=D I'M IN LOVE!!

happy monday i guess?? =D eventhough my head is soooo serabut with the asignment thingy.. still it is more than "breath taking" to have such a wonderful person besides u... and i'm apart of it...i'm having a wonderful person... my dear love besides me.. when.. the world totally collapsed onto me.. owh he's my hero my spiderman haha (adekan scene yg die thn big besi block tu???) =D hahaha
but really i'm happy rite now.. dunnow why.. hehe being so manja with him (thank u sayang coz melayan!) =P - which i know in some part the 'kesabaran' melayan will totally become 'meluat'.. hahaha!!but i know.. he loves me.. thank u syg.. and i love u too!! =P oww!~

hehehe i know sometimes girls like me... love sweet thingy from her bf..
amir gave me everything that i want.. i love his surprises for me...
hehehe dlu i hat suprise! tny amir.. but somehow i learn how it is fun!!
and in this 5 years.. yes amir did more than ever surprises for me..
which that makes me totally happy!!!~~~~ wwweeeeee!!~=D Xtaula nk explain mcm mane
sbb tgh rasa happy sgt now ni!! hehe totally happy in love.. get wut i mean x?? =Powh i know.. my dear sgt be patient with my perangai.. no one else could!
that is the only thing i regret for my myself.. i want to be a better girl for him..
better woman .. =) wonder woman!! hehehe i'm learnign sayang! =)

i dun care for any of u trying to steal this moment from us.. texting me (privately).. trying to defame me instead? like i care enough for wut u're trying to do??? no im not caring anything of urs lowsy efforts !!!yucks! stay on the line baby..while u can.. or might get ambush from me.. he's mine!!lalalala!~ =)

owh its quite tiring holidays actly.. with tons works of coz!! been discussing with mom bout my chambering next year! owh yeah!! i'm graduating baby!! =) nak further in jhr or in kl... its most likely to be in johor i think -(budget matters).. tgklah keje rezki kat mana nnt =).. so fast ok time passed by! i'm 23rd this year.. omg..
huhuhu my mom get so 'bising'.. kakak da 23.. ma dlu engaged 24 married 25 ..
owh ermm.. hehehe dun wanna give response over that.. =P me and amir havent come into that chapter yet! our new chapter starts next year insyaAllah... =P Chapter Kumpul Duit $$$$$ kaching!!!! hehehe

for noww... let me beragau sbentar,, with my syg,! =P

dear syg,, my very trully beloved sweetheart..

thank u for this love,care and fun we had!! love u more each day!! =)
cant wait to see ya!! teringin mau mkn nandos.. banje??!! =P

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

chit chatting with mommy.. =)

mom pop the question today... is it we're seriously in love with each other
=) let me krrp it la for myself bout that conversation.. but i always pray to God
the best for me.. coz saya yakin... dgn siapa pn saya dipertemukan.. itu adalah yg terbaik utk saya =)

mom getting so excited recently talking bout wedding decos like me! =)
hehe ni mesti gare2 terinfluence.. lian xsure lian da story or not bout this..
but..=) seriously my mom dah start talking bout my wedding.. hahha which lian also
dont know when would it be.. =) tgkla jodoh saya cemana nnt eh.. surely..
i'll invite all my friends...

sekarang ni.. me n my mom memg tgh rajin buying the magazines for wedding deco..
steal some of the ideas maybe? =)then this morning my mom dok sibuk berangan2.. for my wedding.. wut she like to have.. =)i'm impressed yet happy seing mom keep telling me her ideas... =)

ma.. dah lama teringin nak invite anak2 yatim on my bigday nnt,, ma nak jamu mkn.. and ma nak bli doorgifts for all the children..she starts talking bout this from the canopy thingy.. i baught a new Ratu Sehari the other day.. owh u'll beva know how much i love doing weddings so much! =)so ma pn ckp.. nak canopy with scallop. =)
tp xmo scallop biase.. ma nak ade nice curtain..

some sort like this

u can see kan the nice curtain there.. prt of the scallop? but my mom dun like pink! hehe she prefers all white..

ma pesan.. kalau nk serve org mkn jgn ala kadar semata murah je.. my parents are very particular bout food.. lg2 nk jamu org mkn..=) so ayah was thinking to sponsor me with dayang catering =P hehehe memg sedap! last rasa ms during my clients wedding.. even mkn ns kosong pn sedap.. hehehe even ma nak nnt ade zapin or anything yg akn entertain gues =) perhaps i want the bamboo chairs for my wedding nnt.. nmpk garden style.. =)plus! nak round table coz i dun likeee meja panjang!hehe fresh flower is a must! =) all of them... =D

haihh bykla ma dok bg ideas td.. happy =) cant wait the day to come! =D

ma being so worried bout me... she wants me to find the right one.. and the best man in my life.. ma ckp.. biala dia tu.. sayang kan saya more than saya syg kan dia.. dia jaga saya.. jaga maruah saya.. lindung saya.. protect saya.. hargai saya and buat saya happy slalu.. sbb happiness tu adlh bnd plg hardly to get nowadays...
ma being so worried.. mybe coz dia da notice.. i'm 23 this year.. which ma pn kawen at 25.. its gonna be 2 years from now =) so ermm tataula by that time i already have any planning or not bout marriage .. engaged maybe.. but tahla mcm mls nk tung pn ade. kawen je trus! =) hehe

okla guys nit already. i need to sleep.. tmrw nak anta adk g school..


"the hardest thing in life is the things that u kept it in silence" - liyana

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

wut a dream...=)

owh so exhausted rite now.. but online jugak yg buat dada terasa lapang!!
sebab i can browse anything i want!do wut eva i wanna do.. yet to have more friends!
owh previously talking bout people who didnt realize i'm around ek?ntahlah... takkan its me yg nak force org kan? they do have to realize la.. well Alhamdulillah..
2010 starts so well.. dgn nikmat rezekinya.. Alhamdulillah..=) owh no to late...

owh make it short jela eh...
pnat la. nk blk mandi n tdo..
i had a great dream. bukan sbb sape yg ada dlm mimpi tu
but coz the feelings... the feels of care, love and warming.,
haih i couldnt explain here...

so long being soooo far from that feelings. wut can i say...

k la guys.. hope my days are getting better!! see ya!

Sunday, January 3, 2010

saya tersentuh dengar lagu ni.
at least someone terfikir nak wat lirik dia..
coz someone ingt when we let go..
we dun want them.. tp padahal diri kat cni
penuh dengan harapan... and perasaan tu xpnah berubah
but they think we dont need them.. which on the otherhand they no longer need us =')

"hakikatnya hati kecilku masih menyinta"

owhohoho derita? of course.... so touched.

kalau hati saya hurt.. saya akan ngs...
saya try jugak xngs.. tp it wont let go
mcm terstuck kat throat ni..
and i can do nothing....:')
people.. judging me in other way
when they didnt really know wut happened
apa yg saya try wat for this happiness..
dia xpnah tau.. how saya bertahan utk semua ni..
and saya rasa saya bangga sbb saya kuat utk bertahan
dengan semua ni... bila org lain tny " how lian? cukupla"
u wont understand.. why i'm still here...
susah nak dilupakan.. tp at least saya try
xnak keraskan hati saya mcm dlu..
he teach me lots till today...
but the other side are judging me without knowing anything
saya dituduh, 'diajar', ntahlah...
at last saya mengharap someone akan faham
ape yg saya rasa.. apekan daya..
bukan saya utk memaksa sesiapa
menyebelahi saya ats dasar saya priority bg dia
even saya tak tau saya ada kat mana dalam kamus hidup dia
saya nak cr page pn jmp kat dictionary life die
saya xtau.. saya cuma sediakan tiap page dictionary
hidup saya utk dia....:')
tp.. dia xkan faham... saya relakan...
terdetik kat hati.. sapa saya pada dia...
bila yg baik dan sempurna pada yg lain tp bukan saya?
owh itu priority.. saya sedarkan diri saya..
"jgn mcm tu liyana" hati terpujuk, tp terluka
mcm mana saya nak baik? :')
biarlah.. azam thn ni "REDHA" ...
i'll kept on my own.. biarla saya je yg tau
apa dalam hati....

saya cemburu dengan kebahagiaan org lain :')
tp saya happy utk diorg..
kalau inilah dugaan tuhan.. saya bersykur...

i will smile to wuteva it is...
this is the year =') and i have to..='}

"the hardest thing in life is the things that u kept it in silence" - liyana

Saturday, January 2, 2010


ku...Di Sini duduk
terdiam membisu
baru..ku sadar atas kenyataan ini..
kau tak ingin diriku..
kau buang aku..

ku tak berbalas
hasratku terhempas..
apalah artinya semua slama ini..
kau beri harapan
sepertinya indah
namun kenyataan tak seindah mimpi
kau hancurkan aku
kau lukai diri...
aku patah hati..

tak ku sangka
semua ini..
kau lakukan